accidentally(/intentionally?) did no-shave november,
and i loved it.
They gave me the gift of useless attributes
Eyes like a doe
A coquettish smile
A voice like a songbird
So I could be perfect
So one day I could meet my true love
So he could pick me up and examine me to see if I really was perfect
He’d grab my arms and twist my neck he touch my feet and he would smell my sweat
And that would make me good enough
I would sit in a chair
Eyes glassed over
Hands smooth and soft
And I would smile blankly because that’s what made him happy
I would be a marvelous doll!
At sixteen I would prick my finger on a spinning wheel
And fall into a deep beautiful sleep
Tears of woe because my eyes would never open
And no one would hear my song
I wish I stayed asleep
I wouldn’t have to stay in my purgatorial reverie
Singing and sewing dancing and laughing
Oh those were happy days!
If you could count your brain cells on one hand
My prince came at the best part of my slumber
And pressed his lips to mine
That swap of saliva was all I needed
To wake up and become every girl’s dream again
I’ll put on my dress and smile for everyone
Because I am worthless
I am nothing but a combination of fake genes and superfluous dreams
I am nothing and will never be anything useful
I can be your toy
That’s what I’m best at
It won’t hurt
Twist me! Grope me! Pull me! Hit me!
I am not even real
I’ll sit here looking pretty
Just for your own amusement
You love my essence
I’m everything a good girl should be
Dumb and pretty
I’ll be quiet now
So you can really enjoy me
Oh if they could see me now!
Lately I’ve been painting a lot of watercolours as a way of mapping my feelings, like the colours and strokes and everything are a reflection of whatever is happening to me. yeahhhh
She cries alone at night too often.
do you believe in magic?
-Life is easier and generally more enjoyable when you wear copious amounts of black velvet
-Read as many books as you want. Even if you have to read three books for English, carve out little corners of your day to read because you want to, even if you have to skip lunch a couple days a week. You probably won’t see 95% of your class after graduation, but you can always find a way to cram more books into your suitcase.
-Learn how to go exploring by yourself and discover the nuances of your hometown that you would have overlooked if you were in a large group. Go grab a cup of coffee and watch people, watch little kids drink milk while their mom’s get tired, watch old ladies spread out the entire newspaper on their table.
- When deciding between homework and sleep, just go to bed. You’ll feel better in the morning.
- People are really anal retentive about their G.P.A’s, but that doesn’t mean you have to hyperventilate over your grades as well. Care about what makes you light up like a Christmas tree inside and deal with the rest.
- Kiss lips soaked in whiskey or lips dry with skin snowflakes, be fearless, do that thing with your tongue and allow yourself to be awkward.
-Make art in your underwear, paint without a bra on, wear nothing but a necklace while you collage, allow yourself to exist as both a recipient and a conduit of creativity. Acknowledge the lumpy parts and the edges of paper where the glue can never stick.
-Accept your coffee addiction, we all have our vices.
-Inhale, exhale, do all that cosmic serene stuff, watch netflix, eat chocolate,contemplate the mating habits of Orca whales, just do what makes you feel like a hottie with a body inside and out and everything else will follow.
Here is an edited picture of the pumpkin I carved last month